Saturday, August 7, 2010

the GAME part 3

his cousin from Mindanao came
he asked if he could to go to boracay and go home before dark
i was okay with it


that night, he texted me that his cousin is asking to stay there for the night
i was okay with it...again
that they will be going back to roxas in the morning


that morning is our ring hop
after the ring hop
ive been trying to text him
how he is
have he arrived home
no reply
i waited
im feeling anxious already why he haven't texted me
i decided to open my facebook account and he has a message for me

" baby, we're on our way home"
the message was sent at around 4 pm
its already 8pm but why is it that i haven't heard from him still
my heart is pounding
did something happened to him?
is he okay?
i said to myself
"sigh...he has fallen asleep again after eating a lot i suppose"
trying to make me feel better
trying to deny that maybe, maybe something might have happened
i slept.. ... .

i woke up at around 12md
i checked my phone and there was no text
heart rate began to travel at the speed of light
BP rising
respiration is deep and shallow
began to cuddle cricx
trying to be calm

i then decided to check my facebook account again if he is online
no Topeh was found
instead i caught his neighbor, his friend online
i chatted her asking where is he..asking to check if he's at home already
asking her to call their landline


i decided to text his mom
hours of waiting for the reply
and at around 6am
i received his mom's text

"they havent arrived yet, they're still at boracay"

i was crushed
after all these time that ive been worrying about him
where is he?
is he thinking about me?
does he care?

he's out there partying, enjoying and at the very comfort of what the sea can offer
nice food
beautiful bodies
luxurious hotels
and loud, fun, party songs

u confronted him
he tried to reason out
i broke out
i just control the tears rolling down my cheeks
i was hurt badly
i tried to break up with him
i swore that i won't call or text but i still did
been texting him still
even if he is not replying
he reasoned out that he doesn't have load
 "lame excuse, you can even walk from station 3 to station 1 to enjoy but you cant walk to have your phone reloaded?" i said to him

he wen't here the day after
we talked
"gago ka! i miss you
and i love you so" i said to him

we talked
we made out
we're okay again

love is indeed a dangerous game cause sometimes eventhough you think you're winning, you can still end up being a loser

despite all the heart aches
all the misunderstandings
all the shortcomings
i understood him
i gave him a chance
not that because im a martyr

but because in him

i found my  HOME

the GAME part 2


how many times have we talked about to stop texting this certain guy

a guy from his past

but still


he keeps on texting him


one time we quarrelled because im a nagger, yes, im a nagger

i admit it

but i won't be nagging if there's nothing to be nagged

right pa? *wink


he went here in iloilo to visit me
we drank with his friends
he got drunk
i checked his phone, the messages of his phone
right then and there i thought that he still loves his past and that im just a toy
the excahnge of messages was about sex (if i remember correctly, but not that they'll be doing it, just about sex)


i was hurt...again
we made up
we're okay

the GAME part 1

i suppose all of you have your own stories to share about walking in a thorny path in a relationship

it started months ago when my hubby is having a problem
i told him to go out with his friends, he refused to
one of his friends came over his house
good, he'll have someone to talk to (as for me, i can't, im from iloilo and he's from roxas)


roads and mountains wouldn't permit me so


he told me that his friend will be sleeping over
it's okay
i thank his friend for being there in my absence


at around 11pm he texted me that he'll sleep already
we bid our goodnights but i thought it's strange cause we usually stay up late


i slept, thinking he's also fast asleep already


the clock signaled 12am


he wen't out with his friends not letting me know, eventhough i told him to go out


i was hurt, i was mad
we made up
we're okay again

Friday, August 6, 2010


cute, sweet, cuddly and furry

this little guy loves playing tag and eats like he's a big dog

he loves to eat particularly pork barbeque (mana sa dad niya, mahilig sa baboy)

he loves to take a bath, and to have daily walks

he welcomes us everytime we arrive home

he barks, licks and runs around us


just like a kid wanting the attention of his parents

just like a kid wanting love and affection

just like a kid who needs to be taken care of


now that he is already a year and 11 months

still cuddly and furry

still loves his pork barbeque

still loves to walk with us

                                 .........will always be our baby boy


almost 2 agonizing months that we tried to hide what's between us...

firstly, i am still committed with someone, someone who has a borderline personality or bi-polar.

second is that my family is so attached to my ex boyfriend

third is, i just don't have enough guts to face my ex and tell him that i can't be with him anymore

im scared

so scared that he'll threaten me that he'll commit suicide in front of our gate

scared that i will be blamed for whatever will happen to him

scared that ill be alone, that if the relationship with my other man, my loved one won't work 


now that everything is fine, i again brought him home

introduced him to the whole family

he is now welcomed with great smiles


a year and 2 months passed, we're still together, happy, very much in love