the GAME part 3

his cousin from Mindanao came

he asked if he could to go to boracay and go home before dark

i was okay with it

...

that night, he texted me that his cousin is asking to stay there for the night

i was okay with it...again

that they will be going back to roxas in the morning

...

that morning is our ring hop

after the ring hop

ive been trying to text him

how he is

have he arrived home

no reply

i waited

and

waited

im feeling anxious already why he haven't texted me

i decided to open my facebook account and he has a message for me

" baby, we're on our way home"

the message was sent at around 4 pm

its already 8pm but why is it that i haven't heard from him still

my heart is pounding

did something happened to him?

is he okay?

i said to myself

"sigh...he has fallen asleep again after eating a lot i suppose"

trying to make me feel better

trying to deny that maybe, maybe something might have happened

i slept.. ... .

i woke up at around 12md

i checked my phone and there was no text

heart rate began to travel at the speed of light

BP rising

respiration is deep and shallow

began to cuddle cricx

trying to be calm

i then decided to check my facebook account again if he is online

no Topeh was found

instead i caught his neighbor, his friend online

i chatted her asking where is he..asking to check if he's at home already

asking her to call their landline

...

i decided to text his mom

hours of waiting for the reply

and at around 6am

i received his mom's text

"they havent arrived yet, they're still at boracay"

i was crushed

after all these time that ive been worrying about him

where is he?

is he thinking about me?

does he care?

he's out there partying, enjoying and at the very comfort of what the sea can offer

nice food

beautiful bodies

luxurious hotels

and loud, fun, party songs

u confronted him

he tried to reason out

i broke out

i just control the tears rolling down my cheeks

i was hurt badly

i tried to break up with him

i swore that i won't call or text but i still did

been texting him still

even if he is not replying

he reasoned out that he doesn't have load

 "lame excuse, you can even walk from station 3 to station 1 to enjoy but you cant walk to have your phone reloaded?" i said to him

he wen't here the day after

we talked

"gago ka! i miss you

and i love you so" i said to him

we talked

we made out

we're okay again

love is indeed a dangerous game cause sometimes eventhough you think you're winning, you can still end up being a loser

despite all the heart aches

all the misunderstandings

all the shortcomings

i understood him

i gave him a chance

not that because im a martyr

but because in him

i found my  HOME